Thoughts.
They are the amazing manifestations of the complex biological neuronal network.
The kind of network that is consciously or sub-consciously controlled by you
and the kind that controls you. There are these kinds of thoughts that arise
when you are ecstatic, when you are enthusiastic, when you have a purpose. Then
there are these thoughts that arise when you are lost, when you are clueless, when
you feel like you have no purpose. I get both the kinds. Sometimes it is hard
to determine what kind of thoughts cross my mind. I guess they are more
clueless than I am. But they say that every thought has a purpose.
Purpose! It is the energy that drives people to do things that they think might be incapable of. It forces you to think of various ways that may lead you to fulfil any task with satisfaction. Everyone has a purpose A purpose to love, laugh and live. A purpose to be the way they are. It makes me think. Think about where I had gone wrong. Realization makes me think of various ways. Ways to serve my life a purpose rather than the life trying to offer a purpose and my failed efforts to fulfil it.
I am a wanderer. A wanderer in solitude. The kind of solitude where I am one with myself. I am surrounded by things and people like an island, surrounded by the water. The kind of water that makes you feel sore, that makes you feel gloomy, and the kind that makes you feel sick. This is the island that embraces the roughness and fierce tides that shatters it.
Amidst all the apocalypse, I sit here patiently thinking, re-thinking and over thinking about all the possible things that could not have happened or happened if I had acted differently. My thoughts consume me in a way a nuclear explosion does to miles and miles of land. This whirlpool of thoughts is a nasty thing that never leaves you like your shadow. In this mind palace of mine, I have created vivid angels and demons. It is a land of fairy tales, adventures and a parallel universe. This palace is where shrine and sanctorum are. It is where I wander for the sole purpose of inner joy. They say I am a loner. They say I am self-centred. The truth is that I find it hard to accept the things at the pace they are. I am a learner. I am scared. Scared that the beautiful palace I have built might get shattered. I am a person of simple joys.
Purpose! It is the energy that drives people to do things that they think might be incapable of. It forces you to think of various ways that may lead you to fulfil any task with satisfaction. Everyone has a purpose A purpose to love, laugh and live. A purpose to be the way they are. It makes me think. Think about where I had gone wrong. Realization makes me think of various ways. Ways to serve my life a purpose rather than the life trying to offer a purpose and my failed efforts to fulfil it.
I am a wanderer. A wanderer in solitude. The kind of solitude where I am one with myself. I am surrounded by things and people like an island, surrounded by the water. The kind of water that makes you feel sore, that makes you feel gloomy, and the kind that makes you feel sick. This is the island that embraces the roughness and fierce tides that shatters it.
Amidst all the apocalypse, I sit here patiently thinking, re-thinking and over thinking about all the possible things that could not have happened or happened if I had acted differently. My thoughts consume me in a way a nuclear explosion does to miles and miles of land. This whirlpool of thoughts is a nasty thing that never leaves you like your shadow. In this mind palace of mine, I have created vivid angels and demons. It is a land of fairy tales, adventures and a parallel universe. This palace is where shrine and sanctorum are. It is where I wander for the sole purpose of inner joy. They say I am a loner. They say I am self-centred. The truth is that I find it hard to accept the things at the pace they are. I am a learner. I am scared. Scared that the beautiful palace I have built might get shattered. I am a person of simple joys.
And
then when I switch off my bedside lamp, I wake up into a mesmerizing,
mysterious world. This is where I find my purpose. To make peace with myself
and with the world.
